sh*t

i did it again

i was doing so well

this past month

and then

yesterday

i woke up late and

missed breakfast

i didn’t even notice

lunch rolled around

but i wanted to 

save my money for dinner later

but then i was crying on the curb

with that literal hollow feeling

i hate so much but 

can’t seem to stop loving

and everyone was watching

i couldn’t stand 

i was so dizzy

i could barely see

and i couldn’t even 

eat a chip

because everyone was watching

and today

i opened the fridge for

breakfast

lunch

dinner

nothing even sounded

remotely appetizing

i made so much progress

over the past month

just to wake up this morning

unable to eat a bowl of cereal

without

checking the back of the f*cking box