you know that feeling?
When everything is going perfect
then all of a sudden
BAM
your attacked
and you feel like the
world around you
is back to falling
a
  p
    a
       r
         t

when it
feels like
the past
again

that feeling
when you feel
like nothing
could bring you down
then all of a sudden

your eyes tear up
when it feels like
your stomach drops
to your feet

when it feels like
someone reached
into your chest
grabbed your heart
twisted it
and pulled it
out of your
chest.

that feeling
when you just
want ot die
even though
a few seconds
ago you were
on top of the world

all it took for me
was those
5
l i t t l e
w
  o
   r
    d
      s

thats it
f i v e
freaking words
to make you
   want to sink
     into the ground
   and never
come back
up again.

that moment
where you just
want to
SCREAM
At the top
of your
l  u n g s

that moment
where you want
to go to your room
lock the doors
take your razor
out of it’s
hiding spot
and put it back
to use

that moment
where all you
can think about
is
w h y   a m   i  s t i l l
ALIVE

but in all of this
feeling
and thinking

you smile
say
the one word
that k i l l s
you

“ o k a y….”

and you
leave.

but then
as you slowly
c a l m down
one tiny thing
makes the feeling
and thinking
come rushing back
like a hurricane

and you want to
throw everything
on the floor
scream
cut your skin
open
and
fall asleep
to never awake
again

but still
I’m just
a  s m i l i n g
l
  i
    t
      t
        l
          e
girl

who is just
a bit
T
  I
   R
     E
       D…..