I have always wanted to be loved. Mostly by a boy. I mean come on, what 17 year old girl doesn't want that. It began freshman year. I had my first real boyfriend. He was my first love. I relied on him for happiness, which was not healthy what so ever. I got into this frame of mind that I needed a boy to complete me to be myself. I was experienced after a year. I knew the ins and outs of having a boyfriend. But, I lost myself in the. I made them my idol. My friends ignored me. My parents got fed up with the drama that came along with it too. I started to realize that guys aren't all that. Girls out there who are seeking a relationship to define who you are, stop. Look at yourself in the mirror and fall in love with yourself. Learn who you are first and fall in love with who you are and don't have it be defined by a dumb boy who you will only be dating for 3 months. Learn who you are girls.